I can't stop thinking about him. This him is not my boyfriend, but the other guy. I find myself thinking about him when I shouldn't. He isn't my "dude", he is someone else's man, and I'm someone else's girl. What is happening to me? I need to stop it, but I can't. I can't control the feelings. It's like the feelings are taking over me. The more I try to push them away, the more they pull me back. I hope that I am not leading down a path to destruction, and things start to happen. God forbid things get out and the rumors start, I don't think that I could take it. I hope in the end I make the right decision